| R.I.P MAH HOMIE JOSH
2dai was a great day especially 4 me.....yo let me tel ya'll i got accepted 2 da school dat i wana b in daym i was so happi.....change topic.....during da fieldtrip dang saw lotta cuttiez up der buh dem pplz was white n wen we came in da theaters we was like daym yo ya'll r racist lolz n dey juz looked at us like we crazy.....we was all goin crazy in da bus we was all loud especially shorty(ria) daym she was funni she was all loud dat Ms. D had to put on ear plugs lmao!!! ill edit later pizzawwt!!!!! |
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| hmm hey well ill just take my deep breath en say what i have to say to you... both good en bad
ok i have to admit that i do miss you ... wait no i miss you like crazy... thinkin about the good times we had and all the times we would just talk to each other on the phone for hours.. remember that one nite wen we just kept askin eachother questions untill like it was already 1:30...and the other times we just kept talkin about delbert diaz...hehe... i have to admit we did have a fun time together..and have memories that can last forever
i still remember every present we gave each other and every moment we spent... i remember the day i asked you out.. i was scared as hell but i liked you like crazy so i did it anyway...but you still said yes... i was a goof and i liked you so much i went against my own friend just to be with you .. thank you for all the times we had together .
but its weird how when you miss someone you only remember the good times.. but for me its different, i think more about the bad and the problems we had together. and i have come to realize we had more problems in our relationship compared to the good times... as much as i love you(which i realli do) i cant be with you cause im tired of hurtin you and gettin hurt... im tired of being paranoid about ur guy friends being so close 2 u... im tired of having to prove my love to you... but most of all im tired of hurtin you... i know you did alot of stuff to me but its all nuttin to what i did to you... i hurt you with the thingz i did 3 times and i hurt you emotionally with every wrong thing i did...i ruin your life in so many ways...I can remember that one day that confused me with our relationship thats always been in my mind...but enough of that im chokin up just tryin to type this... even with the pain of that day still is nuttin to what you must have felt when i did dat 2 you.. even just once... but to feel the pain 3 times... im eternaly sorry..
i now know that we realli did not make the best couple.. and that im not the best boifriend in the world and not the one you want to be with cause it might seem like im the one who dosen't want to get together but in reality im was never good enough for you and never wil be... so my final words before i leave is I LOVE YOU BUT EVEN THO I WANT U BACK REALLY BAD ITS JUZ NOT GONA HAPPEN SINCE U HAV SUM1 ELSE NOW AND EVEN IF IM HURTIN BCOZ BEING FRIENDS IS JUZ WAT WE GONA B..ITS ALL GOOD 2 ME COZ ITS BETTER DAN NOT HAVIN U AS PART OF MY LIFE AT ALL...HOPE THINGZ WORK OUT WIT U N UR BOI...ILL B HERE FOR U ALWAYS...REMEMBER DAT!
love,
Andrew
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